Odd dream of getting a contraption.  Trying to get a hold of this device that did a sort of a photograph of your DNA.  There was a lot of trial and errors. Very short dream because that was all we did.  Oh forgot to mention the word BOMBAY.  The person that I was with in this dream kept saying there are only two made on this earth. One in Bombay and the other…I forgot.  I was told that there were only two so that I wouldn’t break it.



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Most of my dreams that are more vivid are during when I am napping.  Maybe because I am not fully asleep. It’s like being fully aware too at the same time because I know it is not time for deep sleep.

I remember a dream about a car race.  I was car racing.  I dont remember who was with me in the car.  But I was at two places at the same time.  I was able to be in the car with the person driving and at the finish line.   It was kind of slow motion, but not quite.  While the car I was in was moving towards the finish line, I saw that we were trying to leave too at the same time.  I heard the people who were racing against us say competitive things to us. Talking backstabbing words. But as soon as we all left the starting line, I saw our car came to the finish.  Our car looked different though.  It was bright and shiny when it left and it returned gray, beated up, similar to that car in back to the future.

I saw these colors in my dreams along with rainbow.

As our car arrived, I felt like we were going to be interviewed and I thought I saw Michael J Fox hiding in the corner of the area building.

Then my dream switched.  I went inside this house.  It was dark and I said to myself, “I guess I will wait for them here.” I went into a bedroom that had a window that can oversee the ocean.  I stared at the ocean from that window and I said, “Wow, everything looks so bright and blue.  The colors were electrifying from where I was standing.  So beautiful.”  I got sleepy and tired. I yawned and fell asleep beside that window.  I heard the wind, I heard the ocean waves crashing gently onto the beach.  I remembered the colors of the night. The dark sky and the electric blue of the ocean that the moon made with the ocean.  In this dream….I fell  asleep and dreamed again (I dreamed about dreaming).  This time I turned into a silhouette.  I saw myself turn into a silhouette and walking to the beach.  I was just a shadow but as soon as I touched the water, I became iridescent of a rainbowish blue, pink, celestial and it kept changing in a gradient like way.  I jumped into the water and suddenly I asked myself, “Why am I not terrified for my dear life?”

I could see the GIANT waves heading towards me, but I went all the way in. The giant waves were not like tidalwaves.  Just the kind of waves you see at the North Shore in Hawaii.   And swam towards it and became a part of the water.  The water and I became one. We glowed the same colors.  I felt so free and loved.  Celestial mists everywhere around my body and the body of water.  I was floating back and forth with the waves.  I also heard music, but I cannot describe it.  How odd right?  It was upbeat but it went so nicely with me becoming one with the water.  The music wasnt like meditation spa music, it was like kind of like a beach boys kinda of a sound.  It was not beach boys.  It was a unique own sound of it’s own, but the energy felt like it.  Then suddenly I heard the cars.  My soul felt like it was brought back into that house by the window.  I stood up…went outside of the house and said, “What if they cannot find me.” (I dont live near a traffic area where there are cars. It’s inside a neighborhood with only neighborhood cars driving through. Quiet neighborhood.)

My dream changed again…then I remember being in a room full of people.  Make up artist I know and a couple of people.  I was thinking to myself, “Oh no. I dont want to be at this meeting today.  Im too late to cancel. ”  Then when the meeting was over, someone asked me if I could drive them home.  THEN I WOKE UP!  Wow!  That was a cool dream!



I think that this particular dream is a bit of everything.  I think there are simple symbolic messages here.  At the same time, I know I was astral travelling or projecting.

To dream that you are in a race represents your competitive spirit and how you tend to measure yourself against others. Alternatively, this dream may mean that you need to slow down and take a different course in life.

If you dream that you win a race, then it represents your full potential and your ability to achieve your goals. You are feeling empowered and able to overcome your obstacles and those who stand in your way.�The dream gives you confidence and may be a “rehearsal” for your success.

If you dream you lose the race, then it indicates that you may be overextending yourself. You are setting your goals too high.�

Colors in dreams represent energy, emotions, and vibes. First consider what that single color in your dream means to you and your own personal associations and relationship with that color.�In general, pale pastel colors indicate weakness or subtlety. Dark colors represent passion and intensity. Bright colors mean awareness.

To see the beach in your dream symbolizes the meeting between your two states of mind. The sand is symbolic of the rational and mental processes while the water signifies the irrational, unsteady, and emotional aspects of yourself. It is a place of transition between the physical/material and the spiritual.

To dream that you are on the beach and looking out toward the ocean indicates unknown and major changes that are occurring in your life. Consider the state of the ocean, whether it is calm, pleasant, forbidding, etc.

To dream that you are looking toward the beach suggests that you are returning to what is familiar to you. Alternatively, you may be adapting or accepting to the changes and circumstances in your life.

To dream that you are relaxing on a beach signifies that the coming weeks will be calm and tranquil for you. Your stress will be alleviated and you will find peace of mind. However, to dream that you are working on the beach signifies a business project that will consume most of your time.

To see an ocean in your dream represents the state of your emotions and feelings. It is indicative of spiritual refreshment, tranquility and renewal. Alternatively, the dream means that you are feeling empowered and unhindered. You have a positive outlook in life and are not limited by anything. If you are sailing across the ocean, then it signifies new found freedom and independence. You are showing great courage. If the ocean is rough, then the dream represents some emotional turmoil. You are doing your best to handle life’s ups and downs.

To see the sea in your dream represents your unconscious and the transition between your unconscious and conscious. As with all water symbols, it also represents your emotions. The dream may also be a pun on your understanding and perception of a situation. “I see” or perhaps there is something you need to “see” more clearly. Alternatively, the dream indicates a need to reassure yourself or to offer reassurance to someone.�It brings about hope, a new perspective and a positive outlook on life no matter how difficult your current problems may be.

To dream that you are lost at sea suggests that you are drifting around in life without any direction. You are feeling overwhelmed by emotions.

To see a house in your dream represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. In general, the attic represents your intellect, the basement represents the unconscious, etc. If the house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity.If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system. To dream that a house has no walls represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business. If you live with others in your walking life, but dream that you are living alone suggests that you need to take new steps toward independence. You need to accept responsibilities and be more self-reliant. If you are locked out of the house, then it represents rejection and insecurity. You feel you are being left behind.

To dream that you are cleaning your house signifies your need to clear out your thoughts and get rid of old ways. You are seeking self-improvement. To see a new house in your dream indicates that you are entering into a new phase or new area in your life. You are becoming more emotionally mature.�If you are locked out of the house, then it represents rejection and insecurity. You feel you are being left behind.�

To dream that your house is broken into suggests that you are feeling violated. It may refer to a particular relationship or current situation in your life. Alternatively, it indicates that some unconscious material is attempting to make itself known. There are some aspects of yourself that you have denied. To dream that a house has disappeared indicates that you are not feeling grounded. You feel uprooted by a particular circumstance or relationship in your life. To dream that you are inside a stranger’s house indicates that there is something that you have yet to discover about yourself. It may mean that there are repressed memories, fears or emotions that you are not confronting.

To see an old, run-down house in your dream represents your old beliefs, attitudes and how you used to think or feel. A situation in your current life may be bringing about those same old attitudes and feelings. Alternatively, the old house may symbolize your need to update you mode of thinking. To dream that your house is damaged indicates your waking concerns about the condition of your house.

To dream that you are in a room represents a particular aspect of yourself or a specific relationship. Dreams about various rooms often relate to hidden areas of the conscious mind and different aspects of your personality. If the room is welcoming or comfortable, then it signifies opulence and satisfaction in life. If you see a dark or confined room, then it denotes that you feel trapped or repressed in a situation.

To dream that you find or discover a new room suggests that you are developing new strengths and taking on new roles. You may be growing emotionally. Consider what you find in the discovered room as it may indicate repressed memories, fears, or rejected emotions. Alternatively, such rooms are symbolic of neglected skills or rejected potential.

To dream that you are in an empty white room indicates a fresh start. It is like a blank canvas where you want to start life anew. Alternatively, the dream means that you are trying to isolate yourself. You do not want any outside influences.

To dream of a yellow room suggests that you need to use your mind. You are feeling stimulated mentally.

To see water in your dream symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. To dream that water is boiling suggests that you are expressing some emotional turmoil. Feelings from your unconscious are surfacing and ready to be acknowledged.�You need to let out some steam.�To see calm, clear water in your dream means that you are in tune with your spirituality. It denotes serenity, peace of mind, and rejuvenation.

To see muddy or dirty water in your dream indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to take some time to cleanse your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, the dream suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions. To dream that water is rising up in your house suggests that you are becoming overwhelmed by your emotions.

To hear running water in your dream denotes meditation and reflection. You are reflecting on your thoughts and emotions.�

To dream that you are walking on water indicates that you have total control over your emotions. It also suggests that you need to “stay on top” of your emotions and not let them explode out of hand. Alternatively, the dream is symbolic of faith in yourself.

To see clear, calm waves in your dream signify renewal and clarity. You are reflecting on some important life decision that needs to be made. Alternatively, if you are riding a wave, then it indicates that you are trying to get a handle on your emotions. Waves also symbolize potential and power.

To hear waves crashing in your dream indicates tenderness and relaxation. It also brings about feelings of sensuality, sexuality and tranquility.

To dream that you are caught in a tidal wave represents an overwhelming emotional issue that demands your attention. You may have been keeping your feelings and negative emotions bottled up inside for too long. You may be holding back tears that you are afraid to express in your waking life. On a positive note, the tidal wave symbolizes the clearing away of old habits. If you are carried away by the tidal wave, then it means that you are ready to make a brand new start in a new place.

To see muddy, violent waves in your dream indicate a fatal error in an important decision.



For me Friday is the end of my week.  It begins again Saturday with my weekly meetings with people who are like minded.  Sunday a day of getting together with family and relaxation.  Monday begins with household chores and a bit at a time everyday till Friday.

I have been sleeping really deep lately.  So deep, I cannot even hear my alarm anymore.  My alarm is very annoying.  It starts with this group of female voices saying, “GOOD MORNING!  Pow pow pow pow pow pow pow pow pow Good Morning!  What a wonderful day!”  It actually does this all the time.  The thing is I have it set to do this every 15 minutes.  I did this in the duration from 6am till 8am.  So that is about every 15 minutes….I didnt wake up to all of them until the last one.  When I woke up today, I jumped out and said, “OMG!  Im late!”  Yah…that is not good.  I had to drive to the north for a medical school association group.  Not mentioning the exact group name as I don’t want to be search engined by that group.

But yah I was told years ago, a child psychiatrist told me that I mustve had a trauma as a child in regards to time and waking up in the morning.  It’s true.  I actually laughed because when I was little, my mother would turn on the lights, wipe my face with a wash cloth and was very loud in the morning.  BOY what an unpleasant experience that was.  Now I need a lot of alarms to wake me up.  Waking up from alarms is actually not good for you.  Your body is suppose to know when its suppose to get up.  Seriously, consciously you will know when it is time to wake up.  For a person who has been traumatized and has this thing about time, I unnaturally have to use an alarm.

Colors I see during a healing. I see bluish and a rainbow.

***This was a long reading and a little personal, so I will log it privately in detail.


I got a reading from Amy. An Intuitive from Iowa.  What a pleasant woman she is.  She gave me a lot of valuable information.  I think what she has told me was on the dot as I have been all my life knowing that I am intuitive.  I just never paid attention until three years ago.  In my early years as a child, I encountered a lot of stuff.  It was frightening at the time for me.  My family were open to psychic and mediums BUT not open for immediate family members.  We had elders that were friends of the family that we go to for healings.  BUT never have they accepted someone that is younger would have the same or similar capabilities.  That is the thing about my family…it was just not open for anyone else. It was only for certain WISE elders.

I would encounter “the knowing” but when I shared, I would just be looked at and then be discredited by family/friends ignoring me. Not taking me seriously.

Well Im older now.  I decided, I need to make sense of it because I want to.  I think this became very obvious in 2001.  From that moment on, I have been doing trial and errors on where and what to do first to make some sort of understanding.  A little at a time, I was given ways and opportunities to learn.  I will discuss that in another blog entry of my timeline.  Just to see how far Ive came.


She mentioned about marriage.  A son and daughter.  Well…She says she sees me with a guy someday. Haha.  Great right?  I say that I havent thought of marriage because I feel that right now I am not ready because I recall a lot of life lessons about relationships and I now know a lot of truth to it.  For example….I know that if you are in a unhappy state at this time and you dont really fully love yourself, you will connect with a person who will show you this about you.  You can attract two kinds of people.  1) the wrong person who is exactly like you when you are not quite happy with you life 2) someone who is happy with their life

Now if you are not happy with your life or love yourself, your relationship “MIGHT” not work out.  Because if you went with person number 1 and you are not happy with yourself, all you will get is a person who is also insecure too.  That person will have certain issues that you do not have control of and they may not even see how much you care for them.  They will just not see that.  Many other things come along with a person who is this way.

The second person will not understand you if you do not love yourself.  This person will be very optimistic and love you anyway for who you are.  Yet, you continue to be a downer and you dont recognize that this person loves you anyway.  You will pass up the opportunity to recognize what love is. Or see that this person loves you.  In the end this person can get exhausted.  This is a very unpleasant for the 2nd person.

This is why loving yourself is important before starting any kind of relationship.  Relationships, you feed off eachother and also reflect and compliment eachother.  Trust that because of your nature, you will find a like minded person too.  THIS IS MY GOAL actually.  To not try so hard and just see the Universe do it’s thing.  A person who is LIKE MINDED will soon enough appear.  BUT see at this moment in time…I cannot see myself with a person in my same position. I need to learn to do may things for myself before I can commit to another.

If you want to comment and read her blog, you can find her at: http://amykeast.com/

She is a very kind woman and very insightful.  She is amazing!

***This was a long reading and a little personal, so I will log it privately in detail.


I enjoy going to these meetups.  People are nice and like minded.  They always seem to make me feel validated and to feel not alone.  It makes me happy.

Well since this day is my weeks end, I want to collect some things of what I learned this week.


The Metaphysical meetup, I learned how to call upon a crystal stone. I didnt know that you can do that.  Imagine if you wanted an amethyst stone but you cannot afford it and you need it right now for a healing issue.  You can summon it through meditation. Well I did that last Wednesday and called upon the spirit of the crystal, Schalenblende, and without having it in your hands or in the room.  Everyone meditated and gave their feedback after summoning it.  Some people felt or saw earth toned colors, some people saw colors and for me I felt my root chakra tapping. Dont know how to describe it…its like a constant speeding of tapping in my root chakra.  At least that was how I felt it.  So YES that was quite interesting.  One of these days I will need to try that out again.   VERY COOL!


Schalenblende is a closely-compacted variety of Sphalerite, often found with Galena and Jasper stratifications.

The ‘stone of peace’ brings understanding and communications between those who would not normally communicate, and can be used to stimulate encounters with those of ones choice.

Schalenblende was considered to be a sacred stone in the Celtic tradition, providing protection during travel (physical or astral)

It offers immense protection, and is a strong grounding stone.

In healing, it has been used in the treatment of AIDS, and to improve deficiencies in the immune system.

Some web sites say they are for the SOLAR PLEXIS CHAKRA and most web sites say it is the ROOT CHAKRA