I tried a digging session on myself today. I worked on the fear of being rejected. As I digged deeper and deeper….I came across the belief that I was rejected by mother since she did have plans on aborting me before I was born. The whole story is just blah blah too much to type it out. But that is flat out what it was.
I thought I was resentful towards my mother because of feeling rejected. But I felt Creator say to go deeper. As I went deeper and deeper….I started to uncover something that was very painful.
I know this is hard to believe but I remember my heavenly father. Ive known this for years. I know some people may call their heavenly father differently but in other words, he is my soul father….that is from my soul family. I know it’s hard to believe but I remember being at that state where I was at my MOST HIGHEST bliss. Very much happy. So so so happy that I cannot describe that feeling. I guess I can describe it as that I never felt that way in all my life on this earth. I recall being told by my heavenly father….he gaver me a profile about my parents and that I need to go and live in that life as their daughter. It felt like I was being ripped out of the arms of my heavenly parents and forced to go somewhere. I remember screaming out and crying and I TELEPATHICALLY remember my heavenly father in sadness and pain. He had no choice. It was very painful.
I remember being born. Second by second….it felt like a slow motion washing machine. My body being formed and pain. I also telepathically felt my mother in pain as I was growing in her body and also being born. It was a terrifying experience.
Well….going back to the healing. I found my bottom belief about my heavenly father rejecting me. “I RESENT MY HEAVENLY FATHER FOR REJECTING ME.” Then I asked Creator to make the change. I asked to change it to, “i know how to live without rejection, i know how to accept myself.”
WHen it was being done, I started to feel a lightness within me. Little tiny particles were moving inside and outside my body. I felt lighter. Then I took a nap. The first time I woke up….i had a dull headache. Then later the chills.
Mind you that I had two part dream after this healing. You may wanna read the dream i posted before this blog entry.
It’s interesting. If the resentment wasnt there, I wouldnt have felt these changes. There would be no headache and no chills. Also I muscle tested. So I guess I felt the bottom belief and asked Creator to resolve it. I feel that I need to remove the grudge and possibly more surrounding the THREE Rs. Keeping you posted!