I am taking a risk right now. My daily routine is to meditate before bedtime and lately Ive been doing it in full force. I guess what I am trying to say is that
when I meditate, it usually is about healing. My normal routine use to be just about cleansing my space. But the last three to four weeks, I added healings. So the past two nights, Ive been skipping it. Why? I will say below.
When I was 7 years old, my parents were building an extension to our house in our backyard. They construction people dug around the foundation about 3 to 4 feet deep and it outlined the extension of our new area of our home. When I was a kid, we still continued playing outside but we were not allowed to go near the foundation holes. I was learning martial arts at the time and I was practicing. I even stepped backwards and then BAM I feel backwards into the foundation holes. Yes approximately 4 feet deep. I was in pain. My Grandfather pulled me out of there and started massaging my back. I only remember being in pain but we never went to the hospital. In time the pain on my back was gone and I went along my life as normal.
Once in a while my Grandfather would urge me to do these back massages and he kept reminding me as I got older that I injured myself and to keep a close eye on my childhod injury. I never understood what he meant as a kid but I do remember it. As I got older, I was always a happy person. I never let myself get too stressed.
One day I opened a business. To make this long story short, I was super stressed out when I had my photography and fashion show business. Then my back started to have pain. I thought I did something to injure myself but later as I took enzyme supplements, I could feel the scar tissue on my back becoming tender to the touch. I started to remember what my Grandfather told me. I really investigated that whenever I got stressed, the scar tissue would get inflammed or grow.
These days I beein doing my meditations that helps me to heal. My senses heightened so much to the point where I was too sensitive especially in my ears. I was beginning to hear things. My senses just went crazy.
FOR TWO NIGHTS
I havent meditated. So I decided that I will meditate during the daytime only because I think meditations heightens my senses so much why would I do that at bedtime? I do not need heightened senses when I am sleeping. I think this would be more helpful if I just do it during the day time. When I meditate, I believe my vibrations get so high that I even when I am sleeping, I get all kinds of stuff happening. I just dont like it. It can be startling.
So that is my new plan. Yes…time to chill. Tomorrow I will start meditating during the day only. Hours and hours before bedtime.