I notice that the last three nights in a row my dream state was pretty fragmented.  It didnt quite feel like a dream.  It felt more like I was feeling people and kind of a telepathic conversation.  It was someone I go to school with and we are beginning to start a large project together.   In real life this is really what is happening.

Now that I am typing this out, I am having running thoughts that tell me to be very careful.  I am getting that she is also intuitive and very strong in exchanging psychic energy.

Obviously I want to avoid psychic attacks.



Here I am before I went to sleep, I translated an image of doors being shut and saying that I am useless when it comes to mediumship.  Here is the thing, I know that when they tell me their stories, I do not know what to do with it.    So here I am….I was awakened by a story that lasted for a few seconds.

I should have known.  Right before I fell asleep I saw a ball of white light go by several times to my left side.  ARGHHH!

Honestly I am actually upset.  You know why?  Because I didnt want to wake up from a dream.  I wanted to sleep because I have a FINAL EXAM today!  ARghhh. I needed all the sleep I can get.


It was raining hard.  Standing outside of a large home at the front garden that looked like a modern mansion.  It looked like it was at night and I could feel the rain dropping hard onto our skins and also feeling everyone who was present.  I stood beside and sometimes behind this man about the age of late thirties.

The children of three were outdoors and the eldest boy was resentful towards his father.  There was an argument between eldest son about the age of 10 or 12.   They argued.  The eldest son didnt want his siblings to go with their father.  The father became very upset.

He threw the baby across the driveway and the eldest son tried to catch the baby.  I am not quite sure if he actually caught the baby, but the eldest yelled out saying, “Where is my toy?”  It seems that after saving the baby, he dropped his favorite toy.  He looked everywhere in the mud to find it in the rain.   The feeling I got was that he had a hard time finding it.

At this point we all walked away   The thirty year old man had left his children at the front of the house.  He felt guilty and sad.


This dream was not about me.  NO NO NO.  Mediumship dream.  How do I know?  Because I stood beside this man.  I was treated like I was in the middle of something.  I was treated like I was forced to witness this argument.

Okay I normally do not dream since I got the dream catcher.  When I woke up I was actually flat on my back facing upwards.  Then I saw figures hovering about 6 feet away from me.  As if they were surprised that I actually woke up and caught all of that.  I looked at them and said to myself, “DARNIT…..what am I gonna do with that now?  It’s 5:48am.”

Sometimes I wonder why they would want to tell me their stories when I do not invite them to.  Even though they do tell me their stories, then what?  What am I gonna do with it?  I do not plan on becoming one of those mediums that help the dead.  Only because I am not going into that type of business at all.  I do not want a line up where I am expected to suddenly fix it for them.

May you all rest in peace, but I am the wrong medium to talk to.  If you want to talk to a good medium, I suggest my friend Paula Williams.  She likes mediumship and she likes helping.  As for me…I will not get started on this type of service.  I am in a different theme of helping.    We can discuss that another time.

===If this dream is about me.  Which I know for sure is not.

To see a baby in your dream signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted. If you dream that the baby is smiling at you, then it suggests that you are experiencing pure joy. You do not ask for much to make you happy. If you find a baby in your dream, then it suggests that you have acknowledged your hidden potential. If you dream that you forgot you had a baby, then it suggests that you are trying hide your own vulnerabilities; you do not want to let others know of your weaknesses. Alternatively, forgetting about a baby represents an aspect of yourself that you have abandoned or put aside due to life’s changing circumstances. The dream may serve as a reminder that it is time for you to pick up that old interest, hobby, or project again. If you dream that you are on your way to the hospital to have a baby, then it signifies your issues of dependency and your desires to be completely care for. Perhaps you are trying to get out of some responsibility. If you are pregnant in real life, then a more direct interpretation may simply mean that you are experiencing some anxieties of making it to the hospital when the time comes.

To dream of a crying baby symbolizes a part of yourself that is deprived of attention and needs to be nurtured. Alternatively, it represents your unfulfilled goals and a sense of lacking in your life. If you dream that a baby is neglected, then it suggests that you are not paying enough attention to yourself. You are not utilizing your full potential. Alternatively, this dream could represent your fears about your own children and your ability to protect and to provide for them. To see yourself or someone as a baby in your dream refers to your desire to be cared for and nurtured. Alternatively, the dream may mean that you or someone is behaving immaturely.

To dream about a starving baby represents your dependence on others. You are experiencing some deficiency in your life that needs immediate attention and gratification. To see a dead baby in your dream symbolizes the ending of something that was once a part of you. To dream of an extremely small baby symbolizes your helplessness and your fears of letting others become aware of your vulnerabilities and incompetence. You may be afraid to ask for help and as a result tend to take matters into your own hands. To dream that you are dipping a baby in and out of water signifies regression. You are regressing to a time where you had no worries and responsibilities. Alternatively, such a scenario is reminisce of when the baby is in the fetus and in its comfort zone. In fact, some expectant mothers even give birth in a pool, because the environment in the water mimics the environment in the uterus. It is less traumatic for the baby as it emerges into the world. So perhaps, the dream represents your search for your own comfort zone.

To dream that a baby is walking or dancing refers to the potential and possibilities that life has in stored for you. The future looks bright. The dream may also be a metaphor that you need to take baby steps in your relationship, toward your goal, in a work project or whatever undertaking. If you have a baby in real life, then the dream is a reflection of your hopes for that baby.


To�see or play with toys in your dream symbolize childhood, domestic joy and harmony. You may be searching for the comfort and security of home. It also represents playful attitudes and your childish ways. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor that you are “toying” with somebody’s feelings, especially if you are playing together with someone in the dream. Perhaps you are leading someone on.

To dream that you are giving away toys denote that you are being acknowledged for your good deeds.

To see or play with broken toys in your dream suggest that you are trying to make the best out of a negative situation. If you or someone breaks a toy, then it indicates a lack of joy, harmony, or security in your life. You are no longer deriving as much joy from some aspect of your life as you used to. Consider the type of toy and its significance to you.

If you are female and dream that you see or are a boy, then it indicates that you are developing the masculine aspects of character. Alternatively, it may represent your feelings about a real-life boy who is important and significant to you. You may have a crush on this boy and your waking thoughts of him has carried over into the dream world. Your motherly instincts may be taking over.

If you are an adult male and dream that you see or are a boy, then it suggests your playful, innocent, childlike nature. Alternatively, it can symbolize the immature aspects of yourself that still needs to grow. Your inner child may be trying to draw your attention to parts of yourself that you need to recognize and acknowledge.