My dream felt as if I was talking all layers of myself. There was a lot of versions of myself talking to one of me. Just imagine many “Graces” in a blank room. One of us was in tears. … Continue reading
When I was in New York City, I didn’t have the chance to go to the Serendipity restaurant. I wish I had gone. Maybe the next time I do go, Ill actually live there. Haha. I haven’t seen that movie … Continue reading
I don’t remember every single detail. I do remember two things in this dream. There was a part in this dream I was in a diner or restaurant and it looked like we were about done eating. There was a woman there who sat with us at our table and she took a spoon or fork and hit it against a drinking glass. Its the way they do it wheen you are at a wedding reception and encourage the bride groom to kiss. Well there was no bride groom in this dream and in this room in the diner. I was actually there but I knew suddenly I felt embarrassed. I was thinking to myself, “Oh no what is she going to do? How embarrassing.” Well she said out loud and stood up from her chair and said, “I am starting an art project.” Everyone looked at her and they didnt look irritated or they didnt look like the wanted to make fun of her. They all simply just acted like it was normal and it was okay.
I also recall in this dream where i was with my mother and she showed me a map and gave me tons of directions to get something done. It was about getting to Ford the dealership. She kept pointing many directions and I said to her as I saw something on the map, “Why don’t I just go to the Ford Dealership here instead of giving me all weird directions.” Then that dream ended.
I woke up thinking about what I just dreamt. I feel that I have forgotten about the dream about being with a child. He wasnt my child. It felt like a child of a friend and I told the child how to do certain projects. Other than that…everything seems vague and I cant recall them in my head right now.
I think maybe the diner and the woman stating she will start an art project was just something that I talked about yesterday. Number one I did see a painting of a diner yesterday and I even went and did research on the analysis of where that actual building was located. I also spent a great deal yesterday looking at theories and the perspective of this painting. I also spent some time yesterday thinking that I wanted to do photography again or start another art project.
The second dream where my mother wanted me to get to the dealership, is that my parents wanted me to make the time to take photographs of their actual car and to post it on craigs list. They wanted to sell their car.I think my subconscious is just trying to sort things.
Lately my dreams or sleeping are very fragmented. It feels like Im fighting with my subconscious mind. It doesnt seem like night mares but it feels like my subconscious is not agreeing with some of the things happening inside my head.
Last night I dont’ remember every detail of my dream but I recall hanging out with a guy. To me he was sort of just there but didnt recall a face. It didnt feel like someone I know right now in my life. But we appeared as friends. As I had a conversation with my mother in this dream, she asks me why don’t I pursue a relationship with this man. I simply answered her, “No. I will never get married. I dont want to.”
This dream is literally telling me what is happening in my subconscious. I have been in my waking world accepting the idea of someday getting married. Accepting the idea that I will grow old with a soul mate. My subconscious mind has been arguing with me. Its time to let those beliefs go away.
Here is the thing, in this waking world, I have surrendered to the idea that I didn’t mind getting married someday. Years ago I have said it so many times that I will never get married, I think my subconscious has absorbed to it and replays it in my head over and over again.
I decided that I will work on those beliefs. I have been thinking that I have been closing the door on relationships. I have cringed for years about even starting one. Even though I have had a few relationships, I found myself finding the wrong person. It’s been only two weeks that I have worked on beliefs that are regarding around my reproductive system. Im amazed that some people from my past have actually felt guilty about the past and how it ended our relationship. They call me and they tell me how much they felt guilty and bad. Then it follows by me remember old hurtful feelings. I realized that it is time to let those go.
My goal this week before school starts is to help clear whatever needs to be cleared when it comes to relationships. I am open to getting married someday. I am also open to the idea of finding my true soul mate. I use to cringe to the idea but if I continue to cringe, I think it will manifest into something I really do not like. So I might as well work with what I got and stay as positve as I can.